3:168 or .01785 or 2%
It looks even sadder when you think of it in the context of the whole time I lived in Finland. I was there for eleven months.
So we had a three hour class once a week for four months. Forty eight hours out of seven thousand three hundred and ninety two hours in eleven months.
48:7,392 or .00649 or 0.6%
God bless the guy who took pity on the shy exchange student and asked me to the dance class, and therefore vanhat paiva, with him.
I knew nothing about Finland before I left, so it was a surprise to find out that there's little to no physical contact between people. I'm not talking sexual contact, I'm talking every day contact: no pats on the leg, no quick hugs or kisses, no bumped shoulders, no nothing. No. Touch.
It was half a year before dance class started. And it wasn't like I was a touchy person to begin with. But then that first dance class. The first one was tricky, we were all giggly and shy, uncomfortable. But even so, the structured intimacy, even just for brief moments, was blissful. Those later classes would become easier and easier, when our hands dropped, we remained within a breath of each other, easy.
It was like being drunk. Like being a drunk - and the only time I could get the goods was for three hours a week. Everything in me pointed towards those three hours. Up until that point, I had never needed anything so badly.
And what if I hadn't been asked to the dance? What if it had been
0:7,932 or 0.00 or 0%?
I don't think I would've made it. I would've come home early. Or come home later even more messed up than I did.
Tonight I attended the swing dance class at The Canvas (our local community arts center). Since Finland, I don't really do dance classes. I'm not sure why, maybe because that structured intimacy is intimidating outside of a bar without a buzz. But it was a blast. And not awkward. Maybe because I'm mostly past that phase. Coming home from the class I couldn't help but think of Finland, and the contra dances we went to when I was young, and the Folk Fest contra dances, and the one salsa class Andrew and I took (dis-as-ster), and dancing in Texas dance-halls, and dancing at the festivals in Louisiana.
I love dancing.
I love watching people dance.
I love dancing with a variety of partners. I love how every dancer has their own style, their own unconscious signature, their own favorite moves. I love knowing a partner's signature. I love being surprised by a new partner. I love that some partners throw you around like a hurricane and some partners hold your hands like they're holding small birds.
I love that dancing makes me laugh and giggle and cackle (at least that's what Andrew calls it).
I love that when you go to the dance-halls in Texas and Louisiana there are distinctly different tones. I love that when you contra dance it's best to stare as intensely as possible at your partner's shoulder in order to keep from getting dizzy. I love the way that an entire rowdy bar slows down into a dreamy slow-motion when the dance floor goes into three quarter waltz time.
I don't think that I will ever stop loving dancing. And I think that I feel most in love with Andrew when we're dancing.
In other words, if you're not already out there on dance floor, get to it!